NIGHTMARE!!!!

Oh my word...... what a horrible day!

Woke up this morning with the worst upset tummy I think I have ever had..... and it hasnt stopped ALL day!!! I have felt so ill with it, and for it to happen on a day where I had so much to do and so little time!

Thankfully, my dad came over and helped entertain the kids, and Dave has worked his little socks off - am so proud of him today! I've been popping immodium like sweets but still getting bad guts....... my tummy is churning and making the most horrible sounds! Fingers crossed all will be well by the morning as tomorrow is a BIG day!!!

I just really want the van here now to get it all loaded up, get the place empty and head over to dads for a rest! I know that this time tomorrow I will be less than 48hrs away from my new home and I just cant wait! After all the ups and downs, I feel ready to just go now!

It's 10pm and I need to head off to bed as I need to leave at 8am to go and drop my dad and aunty off to get the van and pick up my mate to come and help us load the van and away we go!

Tomorrows post will consist of how the loading went, and how I no longer have a house LOL I will be homeless for 2 days!!!!

Take care all! x

Hmmmm.........

Well, that went A LOT better than expected!

After all the anxiety and stress over today, it was actually OK! I don't think it has really sunk in yet, but I am very proud of myself!

The day started a little earlier than I would have liked (in the shower at 7.10am!) but it was needed to wake me up having not got to sleep until 3am!

We headed off to school, feeling all a little apprehensive, but it wasnt too bad - until I read a letter Jessica's friend had written her.... it simply said "To Jessica, I love you, love from Chloe xx" That was it, cue waterworks! I sobbed like a baby! Once Jessica was safely inside, I took Rebecca over to nursery..... and I held it together! We had a lovely chat with the staff, and I was given Rebecca's "learning journey" folder to show the new nursery! I left her to have her last morning there, and came home feeling not too bad! Set to work dismantling our bed so a night on the mattress on the floor tonight, and then made a few phone calls and filled out some paperwork. Quick trip into town to drop off said paper work and then off to nursery to collect Rebecca - except we had forgotten the camera!!! Dave dropped me, and came home for it, and we managed to get a few gorgeous pics of Becca with her teachers at nursery as a bit of a keepsake for her. She was given a lovely activity book as a present, and of course easter eggs!

The afternoon had intended to be a bit more packing and sorting out, but no.... we just couldnt be bothered! We ended up sitting and chilling out, Daniel had a sleep and Becca was engrossed in her new activity book! We left a little earlier than normal to pick Jessica up just to make sure we saw everyone we wanted to in the playground..... it was brilliant! I was calm and collected and Jessica was oh so spoilt!!! Bless some of her friends were in tears, and I really thought she would crack at one point, but she did me proud! Such a tough little cookie!

So, we come out of the school to greet Jessica's surprise visitor! My dad had timed the bus to meet us at the school gates - Jessica was over the moon! Perfect end to the day for her! So we get into the car to drive home, and Im looking through her school bag at all the bits she has brought home, and she had been given the BEST present ever..... a book with a page per child in her class with a little message and a picture drawn by that child..... oh it is just gorgeous! Even Jessica's teachers have written in it - so there I was, reading it aloud in the car so everyone could hear, and I get to Jessica's main class teacher, Mrs Percy's bit..... and I lost it! I was sobbing! To quote Mrs Percy's words......

" To Jessica, I have really enjoyed teaching you and I know your new teachers will be very happy when I tell them what a star you are! You will make new friends quickly because you are such a kind and caring girl. Have a wonderful time. Love from Mrs Percy "

Well, I defy anyone not to get emotional over that!!! Maybe Im just biased because she is my little girl, but it means so much that a teacher can say those things!

Anyways, so dad came for tea, and the girls were a lot calmer than I thought they would be, so all was good tonight! Im still waiting to lose my internet, sky tv and phone line (all should have gone today!) but hey, who am I to complain?! I will of course write tomorrow (time and internet permitting!) but for now - over and out! x

Cant Sleep..... Wont Sleep?!

Well here I am at 00:55am unable to sleep..... guess who forgot to take the herbal sleeping tablets tonight!!!

Im not really sure why I cant sleep, Im just restless and unable to switch off. I am of course stressing about the weather - BBC News decided to show me MORE snow predicted for Saturday in Scotland - NOT GOOD! I need it to be clear so I can get a clear run up - what it does AFTER that is up to the gods, but PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE be clear for my drive! Im scared enough about doing the trip with the kids on our own, having only ever done it with my Dad in the car, this is going to be..... interesting to say the least!

I think we are pretty much sorted on the packing side of things, just the last few bits to do, but al in all we are living with the very basics - even down to the kids plastic plates and bowls LOL Im just impressed I still seem to have my internet connection - I dont know when today it will get cut off, but I am betting I will be doing something REALLY important like being on Farmville on Facebook!!!

In 8hrs time I will have dropped Jessica for her last day at school, and be dropping Becca for her last day at nursery. It just seems so crazy to be uprooting the whole family from everything they have ever known..... I know long term it will be so much better for them, but I am still having niggles about whether we really are doing the right thing.... so many people have said that they would do the same thing given the chance, but it doesnt make leaving any easier!

I guess once today is over, and the girls are home, things will feel a lot less stressful. I think a lot of my issues have been building up to today, and how the girls (and me!) will cope with it. I have never wanted a day to be over only 1hr and 3 minutes into it!!!

Well, I guess I will have to go and TRY to get some rest, even if I cant sleep, some rest would be good..... Im going to be emotional enough later without having the sleep deprivation thing going on as well!

Will no doubt update numerous times over the next 24hrs with how I am doing....... but they will probably be short and sweet entries as I will be on the mobile broadband dongle, which will only allow me 2hrs internet a day!

Take care all xxxx

This week is just FLYING!

I am surrounded by boxes!!! This week has just flown by already, I just can't believe it is thursday tomorrow!

This week has been a hype of activity, packing boxes, making phone calls and trying to calm the heck down! I ended up going and buying Rescue Remedy today.... wow that stuff is good! I've gone from complete mess emotionally to pretty chilled out and calm!

Tomorrow is probably the one day I have been dreading more than most - the girls last day at school and nursery! I don't know why it's upsetting me so much, but I just feel its the end of an era and so sad to be uprooting the girls from everything they have ever known. We are so lucky in that Jessica has a few school friends she has swapped addresses with and has promised to write to.... I think it will make the change so much easier for her.

The nursery that Becca goes to is just fantastic, I really can't fault them at all. I have been up and down to that nursery for 2yrs now and the staff are just amazing. I have bought lots of presents for both school and nursery to show my thanks to them, I just hope they are appreciated!

I am going to find the saying goodbye bit the hardest, to walk out and know I wont see the people I usually see 5 days a week is going to hit me like a train! I wish I was more care-free like Dave, but I just can't help it. Im just an emotional girl!!!

Another big stress factor has been the SNOW covering Scotland over the last 36 hours! Now, call me silly but is it not APRIL tomorrow?! Are we not into Spring time?! WHY is it snowing..... and choosing the week I really could do without it?! Im hoping it has all cleared by the weekend, from what I can see from the forecast, no more snow after tonight and then lots of rain, so fingers crossed the rain washes all signs of snow away! 700 miles is a LONG trip anyway without having to drive like a snail due to the weather!

I spoke to my Auntie earlier who is travelling from Grimsby up to Thurso to help us out with the move, luckily she has changed her plans from leaving today to leaving tomorrow! I feel a little happier knowing they are being sensible and not putting themselves in danger!

Well, I will endeavor to update tomorrow, although we will losing our internet connection at some point tomorrow!

What a weekend!!!!

WOW! That went QUICK!

Sunday night, 10.13pm and oh my word...... Ive been a busy girl!

Yesterday started a lot earlier than usual for me on a weekend.... 7.30am! I usually have a rule of not before 9am at the weekend but with the sun streaming in through the windows, and my darling little ones having so much fun they felt the need to squeal in delight..... I was up and raring to go!

We headed off to Ipswich to try and find Jessica some grey school tights, and pick up a few bits before heading to Dads for breakfast! Well, couldnt get the tights, but got some cute socks instead! Got to dads and spent an hour chatting and eating toast before heading home and Dad headed off to Bracknell with my brother for the day.

Once home, the fun began! Cue boxes everywhere! Got a lot more stuff packed, and all the boxes from upstairs are now stacked in the corner in the living room! Lots of packing, tidying and sorting out done, it was time for a snooze! Had an hours sleep and then woken by Dave to say he had run me a nice hot bath..... lovely! Our friends Nadine and Stuart came over for a chinese takeaway last night - what a night! Had so much fun, laughed lots and ate WAY too much! Managed to make myself feel like I had the hangover from hell this morning too!

Our clocks went forward an hour, so of course we lost an hours sleep too! So, new time, I was in bed at 1.30am but very little in the way of sleep..... old time of 3.50am (4.50am) the girls are awake..... erm NO! GO BACK TO SLEEP! Managed to hold them all off until 6.30am new time (5.30am old time) when Dave gave in and brought them downstairs. I came down at about 8am new time.... so man alive, that was 7am old time....... I DONT DO MORNINGS! Added with the fact I felt like I was going to die, it was not a good morning! While Dave had done the ironing, tidied the bedroom and packed up some more boxes, I lay in bed feeling sorry for myself! Finally fell asleep again and was woken at 12 noon to be met with my dad downstairs - Dave had taken the children to go and pick him up! We had some lunch, popped to the shop for some bits for tea, and generally chilled out for the rest of the afternoon.

After a lovely roast chicken dinner, we got the kids bathed and into PJs and did homework with Jessica. Kids all into bed, Dave takes Dad home and I set to cleaning the living room carpet...... however Jessica had ideas other than sleep! She decided she wasnt sleepy - which in old timings I guess 6pm is early.... she stayed up and watched me clean the carpets! She finally got into bed at 8.30pm new time (7.30pm old time) and not heard anything since!

Watched the final of Dancing on Ice and now watching House MD while updating here...... and the realisation of 6 more sleeps in this house is freaking me out! I still can barely believe that in 8 days time, I will be in my new home, 700 miles away from pretty much all I have ever known! Although I have moved around a lot, the longest I have been "away" (as in unable to see dad within the hour) is 14mnths..... but even then we were "home" at least once a month as it was only a 3hr drive! I'm now moving so far away, that it would take 14hrs straight driving to get back should Dad need me!

I need to keep telling myself I am doing this for the better of my family, and I know it really, but these emotions just keep popping up! I have also sat tonight and worked out our monthly finances up until July, and actually, I can see now how much we will save by living in Thurso. The reduced cost of housing and the fact we wont need to use the car, will be saving us a hell of a lot of money, that can fund family days out, and future holidays!

Right, well thats it for tonight, Ive bored the pants off myself, let alone anyone who might read this! Here's to an uneventful week - even if I am stuck in for the next 3 mornings waiting for the gas man, the electric man and the energy efficiency man! All these checks that need to be done before we move, but oh so inconvenient!

Night all.... take care and sweet dreams!

Damn Emotions!

Hard day today!

Emotions are all over the place and things are really starting to sink in! This time next week, the kids will have finished school and nursery, everything will be packed, and we will be resting up ready for removal day!

Saw my friend Marina today for a milkshake and chat..... was really nice to see her before we go, and will miss her loads! Cue feeling more and more emotional as the days go on! Saying bye to a friend yesterday, another today, and my bestest friend round tomorrow night for a chinese meal, its all a bit too much!!!

I just need to keep focused on the bigger picture, yes leaving is going to hurt like hell, but the happiness to be gained once I am there and unpacked will no doubt fade the sadness.... its just geography at the end of the day!

I have had a banging headache all day, and I think that is down to tiredness more than anything. I had a bad night last night, but refused to get up and come down to the laptop as I think I would have been up all night then, instead of dozing on and off!

Have just booked an online delivery of groceries for the day we move into the house, as we intend on using or chucking most of what we have here at the moment! At least that way we are up and running in the food department while everything else gets sorted!

However much I love my children, I can't wait for them to be in bed tonight. I am EXHAUSTED and they have done nothing but play me up today..... I appreciate I'm not feeling wonderful, but I had hoped for a more chilled out end to the week - instead I have tired cranky horrors!

Tonight I plan to eat, relax and sleep, so I doubt I will update again today...... the weekend is now upon us, and will involve sorting out a lot of the house and working out what we need to live this week and packing the rest of it! Dad is away tomorrow so will catch up with him on sunday.... and then we are into our final week..... ITS THE FINAL COUNTDOWN!!!!

Five fives

Rules: Answer each of the five questions below with five answers. Tag 5 people to do the same.

• Five things you would do if you were a billionaire.

  Buy a house, a car, a holiday, pay off my dads mortgage and hire a nanny!

• Five things you did yesterday.

  Woke up, cried, slept, went to the shop and read a book

• Five jobs you would rather do than your own (if salary and qualifications were not an issue).

  Midwife, Nurse, Doctor, Nanny, Nursery-nurse

• Five snacks you wish were calorie-free.

  Crisps, chocolate, biscuits, chocolate covered raisins, haribo!

• Five things that make you happy.

  My husband, My children, My dad, My Gran, My friends

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