Im not really sure why I cant sleep, Im just restless and unable to switch off. I am of course stressing about the weather - BBC News decided to show me MORE snow predicted for Saturday in Scotland - NOT GOOD! I need it to be clear so I can get a clear run up - what it does AFTER that is up to the gods, but PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE be clear for my drive! Im scared enough about doing the trip with the kids on our own, having only ever done it with my Dad in the car, this is going to be..... interesting to say the least!
I think we are pretty much sorted on the packing side of things, just the last few bits to do, but al in all we are living with the very basics - even down to the kids plastic plates and bowls LOL Im just impressed I still seem to have my internet connection - I dont know when today it will get cut off, but I am betting I will be doing something REALLY important like being on Farmville on Facebook!!!
In 8hrs time I will have dropped Jessica for her last day at school, and be dropping Becca for her last day at nursery. It just seems so crazy to be uprooting the whole family from everything they have ever known..... I know long term it will be so much better for them, but I am still having niggles about whether we really are doing the right thing.... so many people have said that they would do the same thing given the chance, but it doesnt make leaving any easier!
I guess once today is over, and the girls are home, things will feel a lot less stressful. I think a lot of my issues have been building up to today, and how the girls (and me!) will cope with it. I have never wanted a day to be over only 1hr and 3 minutes into it!!!
Well, I guess I will have to go and TRY to get some rest, even if I cant sleep, some rest would be good..... Im going to be emotional enough later without having the sleep deprivation thing going on as well!
Will no doubt update numerous times over the next 24hrs with how I am doing....... but they will probably be short and sweet entries as I will be on the mobile broadband dongle, which will only allow me 2hrs internet a day!
Take care all xxxx
Maybe try to stop thinking of it as " you're leaving" try to remember to think of it as an amazing adventure that you and your hubby and kids are taking! You're not taking them away from anything, you're opening up a whole new world WITH them :)
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