I've had a nice hot bath, and Dave made me a lovely hot chocolate so now I'm just relaxing in front of the TV before heading off to bed.
I know there are going to be bad days - especially in the run up to the big day, and I just need to try and cope with them as best I can, without upsetting too many people!
Having watched certain things on TV tonight, I realise how much needs to change when we move. I need to be such a different person, and I plan exactly that. I will be putting exceptional high standards down, and forcing myself to reach them. Some of them are below, with my reasons for doing so.
LOSE WEIGHT - Since having the kids (3 under 3 and a half at one point!) I have put on far too much weight. I'm not happy in my own body, and havent been for a while. I have a love-hate relationship with food.... love to eat it, hate the effect it has on me! I will be going healthy, making the kids go healthy and refuse to have my vice foods in the house - CHEESE, CHOCOLATE, CRISPS and CURRY!!!! I must also force myself to eat at meal times, not when I'm hungry! Breakfast - what's that?! Can't honestly remember the last time I ate breakfast!
EXERCISE MORE - Tied in with the losing weight thing as well, but I know I am no where near active enough. A lot of that has been me being so lazy but it is also the fact that where we live at the moment, we need to drive to get anywhere! When we move, everything is within walking distance! The only reason to use the car up north will be to do a weekly shop and to go on family days out! I intend on joining the gym.... it is a lot cheaper up there to have a family pass for unlimited swimming and gym than it is here, and so with any luck, we, as a family, will be swimming at least 3 times a week and I intend to hit the gym 3 times a week too.
SHOUT LESS - Yes, I admit it, I scream and shout like a fishwife sometimes.... probably way too often! I am going down the route of praising the good, ignoring the bad, and using warnings and naughty step consistently! Daniel is at the stage of pushing boundaries, and I need to nip it in the bud! He will always be my baby, but I need to stop babying him so much and let him grow into a little boy who knows right from wrong!
1-2-1 TIME - I really want to spend some proper 1-2-1 time with the kids. Allowing them at least 30 minutes each every day to have uninterrupted mummy time. I think it is definitely something Jessica in particular will benefit from - she is my high-maintenance child!!!
HOMEWORK - Making sure I spend time with Jessica over her reading and spellings. At the moment, we have been guilty of neglecting these tasks that school ask we do every night. A lot of it depends on Jessica to be honest, she loves her spellings and needs very little input from us on them, but with her reading, I find myself getting frustrated because she knows the words, but isn't understanding the story because she isn't taking in the words she reads!!!
GET OUT - I am making myself the promise that I will leave the house, other than school runs, at least once a day. I have become a bit of a recluse here, in that I don't go out unless I have to..... up there, there is no excuses. Even if it is just a walk along the beach each day, it will help with the exercise, get me the fresh air and keep me off the computer for at least an hour each day! Also, make sure I attend the play groups for Becca and Daniel - they need the interaction with other children!
PLAY - I want to play with the kids more. At the moment, we leave them to entertain themselves. I couldn't tell you the last time I got down on the floor and played a game with the children..... thats awful! I want to make some time out to join in their games and TURN OFF THE TV!!!!
Well, that's all I can think of for now, but I'm sure there will be more! When I look at the above list, and see how different our lives can be, I feel excited by the move.... and a lot less scared! I'm hoping I can make it happen!
So, on the whole, not a great day emotion wise but this evening has allowed me to step back, chill out and take a look at the bigger picture. I'm still not sure exactly how this move is going to happen, how we will get everything packed and sorted out in time, but I'm sure it will all just click at the last minute.... I think I'm forgetting that I have done this numerous times before - maybe not on this scale, and with 3 children under my feet, but done it none the less!
11 sleeps left in this house...... 2 in limbo land...... and then my first night in my new house!
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